You call them electrical impulses at the start. When you see through that, does something shift inside or does something arrive?
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As I delve deeper into my most profound desires, I realize that they do not reflect who I truly am. They are merely a cognitive electrical impulse that believes it is who I am.
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You call them electrical impulses at the start. When you see through that, does something shift inside or does something arrive?
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As I delve deeper into my most profound desires, I realize that they do not reflect who I truly am. They are merely a cognitive electrical impulse that believes it is who I am.
After the climax of my emotions, lucidity comes, revealing reality. Once again, I find myself alone and depressed. Yet, for the first time, I see the man, not the empty shell.
So I rise once more—not as a man who faces his problems without falling, but as a man who refuses to give up.
It is more painful for me to give up than to face my fears, sins, and desires that keep me from moving forward.
I do not rise because I have a burning desire to change or a destiny to pursue. I rise because staying on the ground has already cost me too much.
I cannot bear the anguish of watching my life pass before my eyes without actually living it.
That is my motivation. It is not desire, it is not a dream, it is not destiny. It is simply the fact that I refuse to give up.
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This reads like you needed to say it somewhere. Is this something you're working through right now or did you already know all this?
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You call them electrical impulses at the start. When you see through that, does something shift inside or does something arrive?
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The image of rising not as someone who's figured it all out, but as someone who just refuses to fall again. That stays.
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That line about not rising because you have a burning desire, just because you refuse to quit. I'm writing that down.
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So you've decided to keep going. What does that actually look like for you right now?
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That part about it being more painful to give up than to face the fears. I felt that in my stomach. That is the real thing.
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When you say lucidity comes after the climax of emotions, is that when your mind clears or is it more like seeing what was already there?
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You know that moment when someone stops performing for you and you see who was actually there all along. I see that in people's faces.