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Love Dilemma

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Chapter 4: Friend so special

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Chapter 4: Friends are special

Me and Nicky in my neighbour's house..How am I supposed to introduce myself to this friend..I just casually met her at the pet shop...where I asked for advices related to the food Nicky could have..Her breed is Persian...I asked the shopkeeper for a friend for Nicky..hmm..we would have to keep looking, if she could get a friend, from this so called Neighbour's house..Well, keeping that in mind, I just rang the bell to my neighbour Jissa's house..Well..she is not a stranger to me..neither anyone closer..Just a commoner, without much connections..Jissa is here..yup..let's see....I went like.."Hey Jissa, nice meeting you..things never change much..you look the same..This is my Nicky..I would like to meet your cat..and spend time together..as we talked on the phone..". Jissa replied.." Yes, we have a date today...My cat is here..Her name is Liya...We can let them play together..while we have a small talk.." Yes..it was finally after long, that I met someone outside our house, whom I knew since long. She kind of asked about my husband ..but I just skipped that part..as I have had enough of talks with my parents about that topic..I kind of mentioned to Ji..( I call her so), that nothing went on as I planned, so I am just starting over with Nicky..to make up for my lost time and freedom over 5 years..It was a waste of time..or maybe a new experience, that taught me, what life really was...But I guess Ji..did not want to get into my private matters..She showed me Liya's toys..her room, pillow..and her bed..It was so cute in pink..And she kind of had days out..Ok, so I am going to make a bed for Nicky too..a small one near my bed..I want it to be cute and fluffy and clean..maybe red? I would get the same kind of toys from the pet shop..

Ok..so I talked to Ji..about training a cat..into using it's own place for sleep, getting the time schedule for her daily chores..and training her to poop and pee in her own toilet..Wow..now it kind of feels like I am a mom..The visit did help...And we both just went outside the house to see the chickens,...there were many of them..and the rabbits..and the lovebirds..Pets are lovely..but how could one handle all of these..Well, Ji said they kind of got used to it..and are like family members..I kind of thought..yes..animal friends..they are better than people, who live with us and betray us..My eyes kind of filled with tears..Ji suddenly noticed it..and asked me, if I was fine..I kind of avoided eye contact and said.." I am, but I am not completely fine..I was trying to get over my past..I guess it would take time..but I don't want to talk about it anymore.." Ji consoled me..but it felt even worse..I just met some baby kittens there to check on a friend for Nicky ..I was like.." Not now..but maybe later..Nicky needs time and me too"

Yes, people kind of find it hard to suit to a new situation, but no-one knows how life could turn your day..Nicky and me said bye to Ji and Liya...and travelled back home..Well, that was a nice try..I kind of enjoyed it..I guess Nicky did enjoy too..

I started with the story part, after burrying my feelings..Well, I guess being alone at night with my old diary, would help me get a good thread to make my story real...But what was even more enjoyable was the treasure box I found and hid under the bed..It had bits of my special life..maybe wordings that I forgot to write down..as I had no belief in myself..

Now, the real friend I had with me all this time, is a stranger to me..I do not want to disturb him..or complain ..I blocked him..or maybe I am just keeping my world for myself to let go off the ugly past..The pain being with an unfaithful partner, was something I never dreamed of..My friends..were all the same too..Should I just blame myself and sit in silence and forgive everyone?

No, I am not that kind of a person..Neither am I going to pay him back..Because that would just make me ashamed..My old friends are my books..and whatever I have written in it..are what I found in myself..Just like my Nicky...I don't think being friends with a pet..could need a different language of communication..It is just the touch of love,..I know her..she knows me too..We rely on each other..But being special is what I think, that makes it hard to say..that it's really unbearable to get another person in my life...other than Nicky..I patted her..She is really sleepy.

I let her sleep and started with the story, in my Laptop, that started in a train..A guy, who became my friend through a normal talk, but made it so hard to understand what life is..Guys...No it is not a love story, but a friend with a cat, who inspired me with his life..

Read on to know the rest of the story..

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  • PaulaOkonkwo

    The treasure box under the bed is the part I stayed on, all those bits of herself she hid away instead of throwing out. When my sister left her marriage she kept a shoebox like that in her closet for years and never once opened it. Does she actually want it to be just her and Nicky now, or is she still leaving the door open a crack for a person?

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