first of all, I think you're not a coward, and you're only 18, first breathe and give, then if you like fairy tales, travel a lot, make sure these trips will be a great contribution to your fairy tales, and maybe you'll become a writer, you can start writing online, maybe it can be beautiful, and make sure you relax as you travel about other people, talk and meet, you'll solve everything clearly enough, try just try, try something else, try to talk to people, but I don't know if you'll get over it, as long as you try, you'll get over it, courage, I don't know if you'll get over it, if you don't like it, try it clearly, listen, learn, and a lot of people will understand you, you'll listen, you'll learn, and a lot of people will understand you, try to explain yourself clearly enough, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, I don't know if you'll get over it, courage if you do, I think it might be nice :)
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first of all, I think you're not a coward, and you're only 18, first breathe and give, then if you like fairy tales, travel a lot, make sure these trips will be a great contribution to your fairy tales, and maybe you'll become a writer, you can start writ
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I have the talent but not the courage to show it
Well.. I am almost 18 btw.. so I am still a teen who is not even 18..with social anxiety, lack of confidence, panick while talking to strangers, overthinking a lot and talk to myself.. well a lot of stuffs in my life is happening.. as everyone knows it's the worst time for a teenager where we have to choose "what we want to become", that's been eating me up for quite a time now..I am stuck with the thought of "what should I become?" A kindergarten teacher (cause it's only childrens that I can talk freely with) but it would be noisy and talking with the parents of the students would make me sick again.. well now some people would say i shouldn't say that this or that.. I know guys.. but well I can't talk to people.. i start shaking when I try to (mostly when I am alone).. I grow up kinda isolated with both working parents.. a brother who was also academically busy and I was mostly alone in the house.. i start talking to myself when I am like.. 7-8 years old.. and still do it.. it's as if I have another world with a confident person who guides me and helps me.. I find fairytales really enjoyable.. imagining myself in their shoes and thinking "oh! How would it be to live like them? A colorful peaceful like and a lot of people around me?" Well.. sorry for being dramatic.. i just love sharing with you guys.. so where were i? Yeah the job.. another option is to be a artist.. i really want to be one.. but that would be too burdensome and expensive for my parents.. i can earn myself.. but how much can I do without their support? I am just a coward afterall who ran away from everything from a small age..
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yes but its alright honestly, life isnt about figuring out all of it at once but making sure you have enough to survive and just flow with it.
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first of all, I think you're not a coward, and you're only 18, first breathe and give, then if you like fairy tales, travel a lot, make sure these trips will be a great contribution to your fairy tales, and maybe you'll become a writer, you can start writing online, maybe it can be beautiful, and make sure you relax as you travel about other people, talk and meet, you'll solve everything clearly enough, try just try, try something else, try to talk to people, but I don't know if you'll get over it, as long as you try, you'll get over it, courage, I don't know if you'll get over it, if you don't like it, try it clearly, listen, learn, and a lot of people will understand you, you'll listen, you'll learn, and a lot of people will understand you, try to explain yourself clearly enough, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, try it, I don't know if you'll get over it, courage if you do, I think it might be nice :)
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Every other person teenage are same in a way..I started thinking about mine..I dont have anyone to say MY inner feeling..eventually all keep in peace..whatever you do choose,you will find the way
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I say: do everything. See what sticks. You'll only see doors opened or closed if you're looking for them.
A little advice from someone living in a developing country, parental support is a huge help when you're trying to find yourself. Don't be ashamed to lean on them, it's what parents are for.
Talking to people gets... easier as time goes on. I promise you. In the meantime, keep sharing your thoughts in places you trust, like this one :)
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the "imagining another confident version of yourself" thing hits so hard. that voice in your head that knows what to do? that's real. you're already doing it.
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the art thing though, wanting it despite all the doubt makes it real. creating, not teaching, that's worth listening to.
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real question: what would artist-you do if you didn't have to worry about parents' support or money? like genuinely, what's the dream?
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