My first love or maybe attraction
So starting of.. guys don't really gudge me.. I was silly and stupid
It started around 2021 i guess.. yes.. I was 13 (;-_-).. it all started from a viral game.. I got addicted to it and found a boy who was older than me.. he was already 18 when I meet him (online) and so I did a silly prank on him by lying that I like him.. cause someone from my friends group told me to try it T_T.. I was just a stupid bad kid back then.. gosh if only i could go back in time.. then I would surely just slap myself sometimes and break my own phone and come back here.. so yeah where was i? So I told him that I like him (which was a prank) he just laughed at it at first but after like 3 days.. he came and actually propose to me!!! He said by that silly prank he realised that he likes me from before!!! (Oh noooo) And that where it all started.. I told him that I don't want to be in any teen relationship yet.. maybe I'll think about it later.. he also agreed but never stopped showing affection.. he was literally head over heels.. (i mean now I am feeling like the bad guy) but well.. i shouldn't trust a person from a game without even seeing him face to face.. should I? Obviously not.. I at least have that much of thought.. so we kept being friends for a long time.. once i stopped playing game for a long time and I couldn't inform him for a specific reason but when I came back to game.. I was 17.. and he asked me again.. and that time I slipped (i just thought he is such a good guy who keep waiting for me for all those years and I shouldn't refuse him again and again) so I did it.. I went into a teen relationship, breaking my own rules.. and that's where my situationship started.. we talked for somedays a lot.. like mostly in game.. and then at night.. but then slowly we start to only talk at nights and grow distant and I also don't feel really good staying in the whatever it was.. I wanted to break up but I didn't wanted to break his heart as well.. so that night I came home to see some of his messages and he said "that his parents are pressuring him for marriage" so he have to break up.. well I agreed without any drama.. cause that's what I wanted as well.. thank God he didn't got hurt because of me.. but then later on I find out that he was cheating the whole time (I am still not sure though if it is true or not but someone really close to him told me about it).. gosh.. so that's how my first situationship ended without any drama or any tears.. i couldn't cry like how other girls would do.. maybe because I was used to loneliness and that guy was just good at sweet talks and I can do to myself too.. I never talked about something inappropriate to him or anything.. i would just tell him about my day.. and he would do the same with some cheesy lines.. haha.. it's kinda embarrassing.. I hope he stays happy and have a good life ahead.. I got myself..