Trying to write something readable I guess....
"Unsaid Words"
As I walk about in my fright,
The sun shines ever so bright.
It is as if it looks me in the eye
And tells me to shine.
But all I can spare to do is whine,
Whine about the calamity of my own mind.
The weight of unsaid words flails about
And crushes the courage I gathered
From the mirage of those looks so kind.
This sits right in the place I couldn't name for the longest time. The sun shining so bright, perfectly reasonable, and meanwhile you're choking on words you can't quite form. I used to feel like I was being ungrateful for not just... shining. Like it was a character flaw that I couldn't turn that brightness into permission to be okay. But the unsaid words don't go away just because someone is watching you and waiting for you to be fine. They just pile up heavier.
Until you arrive, God guards my heart. When you do, I'll guard yours.
“Is it wrong to burn an old script that only taught me how to disappear for others?”
An indepth emotional reflection
The Morning Train
We think, we decide, we understand, we rethink, we change our minds. We regret. The pattern goes the same. And time flies; our trust breaks, we get hurt, and we stop trusting our gut feelings; we lose confidence. After doing the same, we get two results: first, we learn & become strong, and gain experience & second, we get broken, and we develop trust issues.
Once there lived a king, who was greedy of gold. He loved gold so much that he had a golden palace. One day he was in his garden and suddenly a fairy appeared. She told the king that"anything you want I will grant you. But remember that I cannot take it back."The king said, " Ok, then I want that anything I touch becomes
No one hangs a fruit upon a tree; no one ties a seed to its branches. Growth reveals what was already possible.
The world doesn’t ask for permission before it changes. It simply moves forward, carrying dreamers and doubters alike."