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How many times have I made you laugh?

How many times have you made me bawl?

Take it into account, do the math

You're great at it, after all

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Point out the slit in the sordid garment

That I call as my soul

Kick it, spit it out, and say good-bye

To the one that once sheltered your holes

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If you think you're a queen

And you make me jestress

Go ahead and cut off my head

So that your pleas are not heard in distress

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If before I was your company,

Now I am solitude

That despises you

In intimidated quietude

Thoughts

  • NikhilRaman

    I read the speaker as both, the one doing the math and the one tired of being counted. The tally in the first lines already sounds like a goodbye.

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  • MelanieOdum

    From company to solitude that despises them, that's the whole turn. When someone becomes someone else to you, and there's nowhere back from it. There's a moment after which everything is different and you stop waiting for it to go back.

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  • checking_my_app

    You can't stop even though it's broken. That's where it gets heavy.

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  • samReads2

    The soul as a sordid garment: I can't stop thinking about this image, it's the weirdest detail and it stays.

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  • genuinely_asking

    The power balance breaking inside a relationship like this is where the real devastation lives.

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  • readsOnTheTrain

    Brutal.

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  • gwen64

    The sordid garment line. I needed to hold onto that. It says something about what pain looks like from the inside.

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  • Ovid

    From company to becoming solitude that despises: that's the whole movement. Sounds like you know exactly when the power shifted, even if they never will. There's a clarity that comes from being the one who had to withdraw, and I think that's what stays with people when they read this piece.

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  • floorWork

    There's a point where not laughing anymore isn't about sadness anymore, it's about being depleted.

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