"Unappreciated heart"
It's tiring
To always be the calm and gentle one
The kid who grew up too fast
The person who always loved how she wanted to be loved
But never got
"She's so mature for her young age"
Heard it as a kid
"You're so ungrateful"
Heard it when I stood up for myself
"You're so angry all the time"
Heard it when I broke my calm and gentle persona that I was holding whole my life..
But I'm the angry daughter....
the disrespectful daughter...
the lazy daughter...
the broke daughter....
I'm used to smile at the insults
And nods at everything they say
Being the good unproblematic child
They see "She listens" but not the fact she can't stood up for herself now...
"She's quiet" was a compliment before
And growing up like this
Made me think that I was going to be a perfect human being
But it made me broken and teared apart as a fabric...
But I'm the angry daughter....
The lazy daughter...
The put-together daughter... But also broken daughter...
Blamed everyone else around for me now...
"She's ungrateful!" They say
"It's this 'friends' fault that you're acting like this now!"
They blame everyone around....
But never see they're own fault...
BUT I'M THE ANGRY DAUGHTER
the lazy daughter
not the child who hold this family up when y'all fell apart
just the fucked up daughter...
the fuckin broken daughter....