That part about the show no one's seeing: I think you see it though. That honesty, that awareness, that's what's burning.
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That part about the show no one's seeing: I think you see it though. That honesty, that awareness, that's what's burning.
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I like watching videos, taking with my parents, drawing, playing video games
But then, when I'm not doing anything my head starts talking. "Why do you treat yourself as a victim?" Says "you know everything, why you lie?" It doesn't stop, and to be true is always there, I just ignore it. I feel horrible like the guilt of killing someone, that someone was myself or best said, how I saw myself, it's just in pain, like someone that got just shot. I'm not dead, not in the head, but why does it feel like part of me was missing? That emptyness, is it that I stopped lying to myself of who I'm? Or is it just and illusion disappeared? I don't know,but i know i'm acting in a show that no one is seeing.it hurts,it burns,but i deserve it.
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The voice accusing you of lying is kinda proof you stopped lying, right? Like, if you were actually deceiving yourself, you wouldn't hear it. Weird that being honest hurts this much.
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When you're drawing or talking with your parents, does the voice quiet down? Or is it only when you stop doing things?
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That part about the show no one's seeing: I think you see it though. That honesty, that awareness, that's what's burning.
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